by, 01-27-2012 at 08:38 AM (395 Views)
I wanted PEACE. Iíve lost a KL buddy over some petty sh*t. Iíve lost respect for a woman whom I thought to be a different person. I have a feeling of hate in my heart for a few certain people. I donít like this. I donít like who I am, right now. I wish all these little cheap shots would cease. For me, for you, for your neighbor. Iíve apologized enough. I wish I could close my eyes and pretend to be back in the old KL days. I was very happy with that. But, I canít bring back the old, and I canít take back the things Iíve said and done.
What happened to all of us? It never used to be this way. Even between Ivan and I. Never this bad. Now Rosy and I are no longer friends. Chansorya and I are at horrible odds. And Ivan and I have pretty much become enemies. All over what? Women? Lies? Excuses? Pride? I canít do this. I wonít.
I wish things could have been different, Chansorya. You and I would have made great friends. Even in old age, I would have never forgotten you. Youíre a beautiful and brilliant woman. You were an amazing soul to me, in the past. But now, there is nothing. I donít know where it all went wrong, but I know it cannot be fixed. Not now. So much has been said and done. It saddens me how we are. But I know itís too late. Iím sorry, Chansorya. I wish you the best in life and beyond. You deserve it............friend.
Iíve said some pretty mean sh*t to you, man. You know how to push my buttons, though. Iíll give you that. But, I go too far, sometimes. I know I do. Youíre a smart guy. Very witty. I admire that about you. And as much as I hated to admit....weíre very much alike, you and I. I know I could sit down and have a beer with you and talk about women, and probably laugh for hours. Youíre a douchebag, but youíre alright, man. It saddens me to where we are right now. You may feel as if this is just ďfun and gamesĒ but I donít feel that way. It got way too serious with you and I, and I donít like where we are right now. I apologize to you. You keep doing you, bro...
I donít have much to say, anymore KL. All this rambling probably doesnít even make sense, but I know I canít do this anymore. All this fighting and losing friends has broken my heart, truthfully. With all this said...my time is now.
Last_Chanse is no more...........