LaReine
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Originally posted by Midsummers_dream
I wanted to be 'thick' cus some of my close friends were that body type and they would always make fun of me.. calling me toothpick, stick, etc. I just ate more, that's all. I'm not that big, but I do regret it. I want to be thinner again.
Don't worry about what you're friends think hun. I hope you're not trying to gain weight to fit in either. Even if you did gain the weight, and fit in with your friends, would you feel good about yourself doing this just to make others happy. Whenever I get the feeling of being isolated from the majority, I always tell myself.... "there's billions of people out there, and one of me. I can get myself sick trying to please everybody out there, so I do what makes me happy. I come first, the rest will follow". That saying alone gave me the confidence I have now. Some will like me, some will not, some will share my views, some won't, but at least I know who my true friends are.
I've been in your shoes, I used to be so skinny, and people, including my mom and adults like her, used to tease me about how thin I used to be, I ate uncontrollably so i can meet their standards, but never gained weight because of my high metabolism, til my metabolism slowed down, but my eating habits haven't changed and I didn't have any self control over what I eat. So used to eating whatever I wanted. It caught up with me, then I was a little thicker than what I wanted. But I learned to accept myself, and build my confidence within myself by doing things on my own term, own standards, no need to impress anyone else, because if I do, I still wouldn't be happy with myself, because at the end, you'd still hurt yourself, while others just shrug you off. Do what makes you happy.
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