just because i always reject you when you want to hang out.. and just cuz you never seem to understand the word NO.. doesn't mean that you have to go so low to call me all the names in the book. sorry i'm not one of those easy bitches you usually mess with. why so angry? why are you soooo mad cus i dont wanna kick it with you if you got all these other female you're talkin to? just move on to the next bitch. yeah you took it so hard cus i was the best you ever haaaad..
i'm over it. move on. GOOD fuckin riddance.
i'm so tired of these lil b0ys. people wonder why i'm still single, it's cus i choose to be. it's cus i don't wanna be tied down in relationships, it's cus i'm tired of the verbal abuse, i'm tired of the put downs, i'm tired of being used. i'm tired of being underappreciated, i'm tired of always putting other peoples needs before mine. Im tired of always being second best. i'm tired of never being good enough. i'm tired of it all.
time to focus on ME. time to focus on my needs. time to focus on school and work & most importantly my family. i've learned not to give a fuck anymore. i learned to not take what these guys say to me seriously anymore. because all i've ever known in these relationships are negative things... just to name a few, i've been used. i been cheated on. i been called names and i've almost being physically abused.. i've never really had one good decent relationship because i SETTLE. why? because i am insecure..
but i've learned that i don't need a guy to make me complete. i learned that as long as i LOVE myself that's all that matters. I'm independent, i'm making my own money, paying my own bills, DOING me and frankly, that's all that really matters. yeah i may get lonely sometimes, but that's life. thas why i have my 3 wonderful nieces and they sure are a handful and all my cousins and my parents and sisters and brothers. no way to get lonely right, i have a typical HUGE cambodian family...
i've learned to step my foot down and not take any guy's shit. i don't settle anymore. i know what i deserve and i stand up for myself now. i'm not afraid of losing a guy who wasn't even worthy of me in the first place... what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger right??
LOL anyways i jsut straight went into rambling. i needed to get that off my chest, whew i feel better. kthanksguys.
gooodnite dolls
xoxo
