Mama_Sally

Something needs to change.

Last month - 10/24/2009 @ 12:53 AM

I can't help but feel discontent right now. Actually, I've been feeling like this for a while.. I feel so vulnerable and I don't even know why. I feel like my life is all over the place and nothing feels/seems right. I suppose I just need to tackle things one by one and sort everything out.. but where the hell do I start?? Ugh I hate this feeling so so much. I need to do some soul searching :/

On a brighter note, I love how when Lana and I wake up in the morning.. she has to say 'good morning' to just about everything she comes across such as the couch, chair, table, bed, and etc. Haha, it's so cute.. and she does this every morning. Gosh I love my babygirl <3

I'm so not looking forward to class tomorrow morning. It's going to be a l.o.n.g. day. This will be the LAST time I take a Saturday class. I can't believe I let my cousin talk me into it, lol. At least I'll have something to look forward to later on.. a night out w/the girls. I get super excited every time we see eachother bc it doesn't happen too often. We try to get together at least once a month.. but that doesn't always happen being that everyone is so caught up doing their own thing now. Anywho, must study a bit more and then call it a night!

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socutemonie wrote

Last month - 10/24/2009 @ 1:02 AM

Aww, Lana's so cute! Haha

Mama_Sally wrote

Last month - 10/24/2009 @ 1:30 AM

Haha, yea.. just wait until yours gets to that age. She's gna amaze you even more =)

socutemonie wrote

Last month - 10/24/2009 @ 1:41 AM

Haha, I know! She already does, but I can't wait till she's older and is talking.

Mama_Sally wrote

Last month - 10/24/2009 @ 1:45 AM

Oh it's gna get real interesting once she starts talking. With the cutesy stuff.. also comes the arguing hahah. Huy.. but what would we do without them? :p

socutemonie wrote

Last month - 10/24/2009 @ 1:54 AM

Haha, I know! Sometimes I think she's already arguing with me!

Paradox wrote

Last month - 10/24/2009 @ 1:13 AM

There are so many things a person could be lost at. So just focus on that part of your life, spend some time with it and maybe it'll come to you. Now if your WHOLE life is lost...then I have no idea what to say. Except maybe goodluck and you are so lucky to have such a cute daughter (I think baby girl mostlikely means daughter). It's weird when you have kids...the weirdest or smallest things in the world seem like the coolest thing ever. My niece rolls over and I get SO proud. Lol.

sSilentxstarzZ wrote

Last month - 10/24/2009 @ 1:15 AM

yeah. kids have the gift of brightening up your darkest days =) My nephew drives us crazy, but he also puts a smile on all our faces each day

Mama_Sally wrote

Last month - 10/24/2009 @ 1:36 AM

Paradox- You're right. I think I just need to really focus on the areas in my life that needs improvement. Sometimes things just feel a bit overwhelming and it's hard to grasp on to it all. I need to reorganize my priorities and figure out what stays and what goes.
Oh and it's true, once you have kids, you start to notice yourself amazed at the most smallest things. It's great :)

Mama_Sally wrote

Last month - 10/24/2009 @ 1:37 AM

Lina- Children sure make the world a happier place to live in. They are such precious gifts!

sSilentxstarzZ wrote

Last month - 10/24/2009 @ 1:13 AM

awww...hope things get better for you!! Your daughter's so cute!

Mama_Sally wrote

Last month - 10/24/2009 @ 1:41 AM

It's so funny how lil ones say/do the funniest things. There's surely never a dull moment with them hehe. But thanks, Lina. Idk why I'm feeling so damn emo haha. I just need to have a different outlook on life

sSilentxstarzZ wrote

Last month - 10/24/2009 @ 1:52 AM

I know how it feels to be consumed by those dark feelings without really understanding how you got there. I think the best thing to do is to vent it out somehow someway.

Mama_Sally wrote

Last month - 10/24/2009 @ 1:56 AM

I think so too. I think I need to just let it all out on paper or something. I hate having all of these different feelings and not being able to make sense of any of 'em.

bloved1 wrote

Last month - 10/24/2009 @ 1:20 AM

Lana talks to couch? lol , you feel the way u feel, is it because you keep doing the same thing everyday? a change of life style might help cheer you up. shift your focus to something that interest you, other then what you're doing right now. you might not like it in the beginning but spend sometime on it, and it'll grow on u. talk to yourself more and find out what u are and what want and read more about it. ^_^;

Mama_Sally wrote

Last month - 10/24/2009 @ 1:43 AM

Thanks.. good suggestions. I think I need to start writing in a journal or something so that I can organize my thoughts. I feel like everything is just scattered everywhere and it's driving me nuts. I have no structure in my life right now.. or so it feels.

bloved1 wrote

Last month - 10/24/2009 @ 2:28 AM

sure, journal is good. i do keep them, but keep losing them since i moved a lot. but i can tell you one thing writing journal does bring you closer to yourself. it's a good thing to deal with past/present/future.

yOuAiNtGanGsTaH wrote

Last month - 10/24/2009 @ 5:30 AM

suffer now and smile later =)

Khmigger wrote

Last month - 10/24/2009 @ 5:59 AM

keep ya head up and handle ya business. We all gotta do some work to get through the day.

eeease wrote

Last month - 10/24/2009 @ 6:19 AM

Sat class? There should be no such thing! Don't make the rest of us look bad.

Mizz_Luv3r wrote

Last month - 10/24/2009 @ 9:17 AM

one step at a time sweetie. it'll all work out. i have days like this too, 'cause i want everything done right now...lol lana is sooo cute. you should record her doing that one morning..lol