The ramp I take to exit off the Highway, to get to work, has a road sign informing me it will be closed on 9/17, I was in search of electrical tape and I notice the .22 caliber bullets, still on the coffee table from that year that could have been my last! I get online and I see a thread on seeing a psychologist and it hits even closer to home. Than a blog on cancer appears and it nearly brings tears to my eyes, Remember how hard it was for you when your mother, no OUR mother passed away of stomach cancer. I feel this sickening feeling in my stomach? My body is reacting on its own even though mentally, I know I have gotten over you! I know I don’t hold any animosity towards you. I smile finds a way to my face when I hear you are happy with him and that you are doing great! It’s been nearly two years later and over the past year I have thought about you less and less to where you do not affect me anymore. To go even as far to say you don’t matter to me anymore! Although I will have to say Today hit me pretty hard knowing I want to wish you a Happy Birthday but know it just wouldnt be a good idea! Just as you knew when my birthday was two weeks ago and all you could do was block your number and playe the happy birthday song onto my voicemail!
